Time to go down in flames and I’m taking you closer to the edge
posted on August 26, 2010
♬♫♪: 30 Seconds to Mars – “Closer to the Edge”
Book: Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis
Feeling: 
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Let me just start by saying how much I love personal reflection. I love looking at where I was a year ago and where I am now. For example, last year I was buying $10 American Eagle flip flops and listening to “Mr. Hurricane” by Beast not knowing that in the next two semesters I would face challenges that made it clear that the amount of strength I really had exceeded the amount of strength I ever knew I possessed in both academia (in both semesters, my GPA took blows) and faith (I went from Christian to Atheist to Agnostic and now I’m at Skeptic and every step was painful).
Today (well technically yesterday since it is after 12am) I moved in and just literally finished unpacking (It’s just after 12am). I am so exhausted but excited at the same time. Last year, my “college song” that I listened to while I was going back/moving into my dorm last year was ‘Mr. Hurricane’. This year’s college song that I jammed to while going back/moving in was 30 Seconds to Mars’ – ‘Closer to the Edge’.
The song/video is kind of cool. Not to mention that Jared Leto is hot and I ♥ the cinematography (I think that’s what I’m referring too lol).
And my wisdom teeth are coming in. That caused me to be excited because well, they’re wisdom teeth. The whole ‘wisdom’ aspect makes me happy. I figured that my wisdom teeth were coming in maybe a month ago but didn’t find a reason to necessarily care until literally Sunday when upon waking up felt a dull ache where I presume the wisdom tooth on the right side of my jaw was growing. Can I say, ‘Convenient.’ 
But I’m so excited, I don’t care 
Also, I’ve volunteered to redo the website for a school organization (Intervarsity) that I’m apart of annnnnd I’m kind of excited.
Questions:
I love this blog post <3! Because I love music and I always include music in the most important "times" of my life. I also have theme songs for..anything. I love to "prep myself up" when, for example, leaving for a job interview or something. I have a song that makes me feel good & powerful
# How do you find school: fun, lame, boring, waste of time?
It's ok. Sometimes boring. But, I guess, it's my own choise to continue studying further (Uni).
# Where were you a year ago and what have you learned?
Year ago I was living with my parents and was a year younger aaand felt like I had learned a lot by then. But now I realize I have learned a lot more, again, in this 1 year.
# Type your name with your chin!!!!
Whoopsie.
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w00t for self-reflection.
-I used to think school was mostly boring. Then I got a full time job at the bank and school never seemed more exciting to me as it does now.
-A year ago, I was moving into my dorm at IU. I didn’t know a lot about myself then, and this past year, I’ve learned a lot in that area, especially concerning my weaknesses and habits.
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I love personal reflection and self-analysis. Unfortunately, few other people my age ever do the same. I’ve learned so much about myself from actually stopping to think about what I do and what I’ve done that I’m in a different place than most of my peers. I know more revelations will come in the future since the next few years of my life will be some of the most important ones, but I already feel like I’ve “found myself.”
1. Tiring. I know there is a point to it and working hard will get me where I want to go in the future, but it’s very time-consuming.
2. I was pretty much in the same place physically. Mentally, the biggest change probably involved my understanding of the material I was taught. In english, art, and math, some of the more abstract concepts just starting clicking.
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Oh, I love looking at the way songs tell part of my life. It’s such a personal thing but at the same time you kind of want to share it – at least that’s how it is with me. I just remember a heap of Linkin Park songs being played around the time of my exams in high school. I also remember turning out the lights and putting the music on so loud!
There was also some other song; one on the Matilda movie soundtrack, that reminds me so much of my high school days because of a slideshow they played.
Anyway that was a bit off topic, but I love reflecting as well. For me it isn’t as long as a year, sometimes I reflect on my week as a whole, or my past month.
I haven’t heard that 30STM song; it sounds great! I have only heard a few of their old albums and not the new one… but I do have the new one lying around. XD
My top wisdom teeth are coming down! I had teeth pulled for them to fit so I’m hoping it’s worth it, hah.
# How do you find school: fun, lame, boring, waste of time?
It’s a bit of a waste of time – but I love to learn. I just think it could be more interesting and flexible than it already is.
# Where were you a year ago and what have you learned?
I was in my first year of university and it was mind-blowing; I couldn’t believe I’d made it all the way through. But I learned, since then, that I have to put in effort. My course at university doesn’t have exams, but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t study. I learned that even though we only have a lot of assignments, half-assing them doesn’t help – at all!
# Type your name with your chin!!!!
gedolrgina (that wasn’t so bad!!)
1) i used to think school was a waste of time. but now i really want to go back because its been boring sitting home. and, i really like what im studying.
2) i was preparing to go to into my first year of university. and my views have changed, i learned a whole lot since then. but i think the biggest thing i learned was who my real friends are. that is what is important to me this days, are who are really there for me.
3) ash,l,.edy (closeee!)
good luck on your wisdom teeth! hopefully you dont have to have them removed by surgery. its hard on a lot of people. i havent even felt my wisdom teeth for years now.
Personal reflection….
I like seeing how far I’ve come but for the most part I get really frustrated about how I was. I wish I had gotten further many years ago, I wish I was a whole bunch of things I was not, but then I realize that I can only be that now, which is intimidating.
haha I don’t like 30 seconds to mars that much. They just don’t do it for me :p
How do you find school: fun, lame, boring, waste of time?
I hate it. I hate it with a passion. I remember coming home everyday in my old school and crying, but it’s really important to study and do my homework so I would say I’m pretty studious, although I cannot stand one moment of it. I struggle a lot.
Where were you a year ago and what have you learned?
A year ago I was in a terrible position, I was not coping with school, (not as in the work but the teachers and friends) because i didn’t really have any friends, and the teachers were terrible to me. The work was so hard and all I ever did was that, and a few things I don’t really remember, but I think I’ve grown a lot. I would love to go back to that though, to be in that place to grow more etc..
Type your name with your chin!!!!
mjldba
haha I missed most of the keys..
wisdom tooth…i’m feeling the bottom two growing out too [upright position for now at least]. as for the top two, i don’t feel anything. my mom jokingly said that the lack of wisdom teeth resembles my lack of wisdom due to lack of maturity. of course she was joking [she better! T__T]. hope they grow upright so that you wouldn’t have to have them removed.
1) interesting since i had mixed experiences. since my school was a competitive one, i was motivated to do my best so that i could get into a good college. yay for that
2) last year i was here in college and i learned a lot about music forms
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